i so didn't want to work out last night, and i did the lamest exercise i could. i just don't feeeeeeel like it.
i have all the inspiration i need to find a new job, but i have zero inspiration to work out. i mean i know what i want to look like and i think i know what Master wants me to look like, which should be inspiration enough right? Um, no. i was thinking maybe if i post a bunch of pictures around my place that might help. i might do that this weekend?
i've been having bad feelings about how i look lately so i really need to do something. my self esteem has been a bit low. Again, want to be perfect for Him. In the past when i've felt like this Master had me post pictures to prove a point...........but i did send pictures of my piercings to someone last night and don't think i got good feedback, so........................
Still worried about the job, but i trust what Master says and believe that He will take care of everything. The thought is working it's darn way back in to my mind every time i send my resume out. Maybe i should do what i said i was going to do and be positive. Maybe a new job won't take any time away from Master at all. i should think about that too. Maybe i could find a job that would relocate me - ha!
Still feeling distant but secure with Master. i wish there was some button i could push to change that.
Had to stop some conversations today. Sometimes i find myself answering questions i shouldn't be because i get roped into the conversation. Dammit. The sneaks that do that to me!
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