i haven't been doing what i'm supposed to do. my tasks. Well most of them, not all.
This a**hole really messed with me and i'm beating myself up about it. i'm still not to block him. Master is trying to get a point across. He sent me another email last night.
Master is back and we had some things we had to discuss. Good things. Things to better us. Everything happens for a reason right? Perhaps this man came in to show us both something?
i've been punished for the things i haven't been doing. i deserve it and so much more. i don't feel connected to Him today. it's my fault and i hate it. i put me here. He's told me that He feels He's lost some control over me. He hasn't at all. But i made Him feel that way and i feel like i've been stabbed. On my own accord. i landed right on the knife.
Nothing much else to say really.
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