i asked Master if i am to have some rules for this new physicality added in my life. He says yes, and will let me know what they will be. i'm glad for that. i think without them, it would just become an everyday sort of thing and i wouldn't feel so owned physically anymore, like i do now. i really need and want rules.
i'm also being punished for the next 2 nights. i have to play double the time both nights because i didn't do it last night. Honestly i'm not in the mood. Is that bad? Is it strange that i am just not motivated right now? Maybe it's because i'm bored. i don't know. Anyway, i have to do it.
i'm feeling very unmotivated and lazy. The physical friend/dom is coming over later. Maybe that will help?
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