Lots of work on the computer today. Looking for jobs, talking to friends and contacts. Can't say i'm not trying to make things better for myself. i don't want to loose the momentum. i think tomorrow i will work on reaching out to some old contacts from the other industry i was in. See what happens there.
Have had lots on my mind in regards to my changes. Obviously my job has to change, my living situation needs to change, and i wonder if i am mentally ok to try and "date". i've been thinking a lot about sex lately and also about what Master had said about how things only change if you allow them to. i never want anything to change between Master and i (well other than the obvious), so i will not allow it to.
i think my mind might be (again "might") in the right frame. Although it is up to Master what i do.
All i am going to do is to take each day at a time. i'm going to do my best to try and not think ahead, and over think. i am also doing my very best to stay positive in everything. i have to. i don't want to go back and be as miserable as i was in November. It was not good for anyone.
Anyway, had some great conversations with some people today. i enjoy talking, learning. i also like doing research. Have to work on my new report for Master. i'm looking forward to it. He did say He liked my last report, so i was very happy about that. Whew!
i get to cum tonight too. Very happy about that. i need it. i also have to start my work out again. That i am not very happy about. i feel very lazy at the end of the day and all i would like to do is sit on the darn couch - blah. i think i should post a picture of what i'd like to look at by my television. Maybe that will motivate me......................
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